Archive | March, 2009

Leave out all d rest

30 Mar

Just wanted to put it up……………………..

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I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here
So if you’re asking me I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taking my beating
I’ve shared what I’ve made
I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you’re asking me I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

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Of Career, Future and Marriage

27 Mar

I’m Home after a long long time. I always get this feeling that I’m into a time machine traveling at least 15 years back whenever I come home. One of the reasons is that, the place that is my hometown is small town nearby Amravati in Maharashtra, called Akola.

 

Don’t get me wrong. I love it from the bottom of my heart. But life as I’ve known it since the last one and a half year working in Pune and Mumbai, completely shifts gears whenever I am in Akola. It’s like sitting in a time capsule. I always have this awkward feeling of weightlessness and I feel like I’m not really in the place that I have lived for 22 years of my life. It’s like I’m floating in some dreamy world where I just have to sit and watch.

 

Ok, I know a lot may of you (d teeny weeny number 😉 who read dis) might think I’m having some kinda psychological problem. But no that’s not it. Ok lemme explain. I met two of my very good friends today who within the span of 8 months have both gotten married. Meeting them today was like meeting two strangers. Why? Well for starters, they have completely given up on whatever traces of a career that they had and given in to all the practices of their “Sasural ke reeti rivaaj”. One of them even has to take a ghoonghat at all points in time, at her place. That means she has to invariably wear a sari all the time. Not that I am against any customs followed in any community, but it just seems so normal for her to follow everything that her husband or parents in-law tell her, without even thinking twice. It kinda makes my head spin. Of course I’m happy for both of them, but…….

 

One more reason why I’m feeling weird is because the kind of people that I have been interacting with for the past 19 months is completely opposite to the people that I met today. Everyone is so career oriented. We talk about stuff ranging from CAT, GMAT, MBA, International MBA, onsite opportunities, Clients, Coding, Latest technologies, future, buying a house, car loans, bank balance…. Phew. Marriage is almost never on the cards. Yes most of these people also come from small towns but somewhere we have all carved a niche for ourselves, our own special place under d sun, a place which is very far from the limits of our small hometowns.

 

But then sitting there I also realized that these people are not unhappy, because even they have their special place, and think that this was what they were born to do. Maybe, maybe, even I want that at some level. Yes I’m a girl, and we dream about perfect weddings, the perfect dress, but most importantly the perfect GUY. And yes I want to be successful, yes I want to earn money, yes I want a nice house, a car a great job, but isn’t all this useless if I do not have anyone to share it with.

 

So let’s see what’s in store for me……. Feeling sleepy now……. YAWN!!!!!!!! J

 

P.S: All my relatives and especially Mom if u r reading this, don’t get too surprised or excited 😉

Confused!!!!!

17 Mar

For a long time i was under the impression that writing about your own life on your own blog was sad. I mean why would anybody else be interested in my life?

But today i have realized it’s not so much for others that people put up their personal things on a public domain but for their own selves. A lot of people like me are away from their loved ones, and when you come at a point in life when you so require a comforting hand on ur shoulder or just a hug, saying i’m there for you child, you become so helpless and restless, that this is the only medium available to let off d steam.

I have always felt that God puts me at such crossroads in life where taking a step towards any path or direction seems to be impossible. Well if not impossible, it does not seem to be in my control to say the least.

I am at such a crossroad in life ryte now, and although it may seem like a very trivial matter to be talking about to some, for me it falls into a life changing category.

What is it? Well, for starters, the client that i was working for in my company, does not require so many ppl in one project anymore pertaining to “the thing that must not be named” ( for all d tubelights out der…… recession… dumbo….. i’m so tired of that word, so ….. whatever, this bracket is getting way too long now 😉 ). My manager has assured to get me another project maybe an onsite opportunity ( hush hush…… i’m not supposed to talk about it….. oops i already did lolz). And all this while i was thinking of resigning if i would get into a good (just “good” ok…. nope i’m not IIM material….. didn’t even take d big fat CAT he he). But now all of a sudden MBA seems to be “not so important”, and i dont wanna leave my job.

So it’s like i’m standing at this junction where i’m just waiting to be pushed into a particular direction, so that i don’t have to take d pains to take a decision on my own…. i just can’t you see……

Anyway, i think this is quite a lot for now. Let’s see when i can muster up the courage to write about me again.

In the meanwhile, just pray for me ppl (if der are any who read dis crap 😉 )

Ok gotta go…… Thinking of spending the whole day playing Clickomania, so i can fill up d high score list with my name and make d imaginary Danny who is currently leading ( Who d hell is Danny???? Kya pata yaar….. Whatever)

Ciao…..

NEWS:”Some Achaar” to “All Masala”

4 Mar

“Kya aliens bhi doodh peete hain”

“Dekhiye kaise Gayoon ko kidnap kiya aliens ne”

You must have seen this type of unimaginable crap on a score of Hindi news channels.

I always swore by all the English news channels, thinking that at least they showed stuff that was genuine and what made a difference to the common man.

Yesterday all my beliefs went shattering down the drain. Why?

Consider this: “Shocking Similarity between 26/11 and attacks on Sri Lankan Team”

Tonight at 9pm only on Times Now.

‘Times Now’ was one news channel which I really appreciated, especially because of Aarnav Goswami.

Yesterday while catching up on the latest developments on the Sri Lankan team attack I came across this really amusing piece that they had created for the 9pm news.

According to Times Now, the method of attacks on 26/11 Mumbai CST and the attack on Sri Lankan Team was “shockingly similar”. ( Aaj tak would term it as “Bhayanak Sach” or something equally disgusting)

Point No 1: Both the attackers had backpacks full of explosives and bullet rounds. (Photographs with bright red circles highlighting the backpacks)

I have a backpack of the same style and colour…. Does that make me similar to the terrorists?

Point No 2: The attackers had the same type of arms (AK 47’s or 56’s.. I dunno) which Ajmal Kasab had. (More photographs with red circles)

The whole world knows that terrorist groups have more modern arms and guns than even the Indian police force. And besides if they didn’t have that they stood no chance of battling the security of the Sri Lankan team.

Point No 3: “Look at the shocking similarity in the way they approached, Surprise Attack, audacious approach….blah blah blah…..”

Didn’t it occur to anybody that to attack somebody u have to have an element of surprise. Even a small child for that matter knows that if he wants to scare his friend from behind a wall he has to do it quickly without being discovered. It is also shown on all the news channels how the terrorists are given military level of training. I’m sure the military curriculum has a chapter or two on “Surprise Attack”

Also the fact that the 26/11 attacks were so extensively shown on all the news channels even after weeks of it getting over. Pictures of Ajaml Kasab zoomed in and out a zillion times and details of each and every place that he might have shot, walked or even peed for that matter, that any person remotely trained would be able to learn how to attack a particular place and create maximum damage. I bet even Mr Sharukh Khan must not have got that much of publicity in such a short amount of time.

But the most disappointing thing was that “Good ” news stations are also resorting to such cheap ways to boost their TRP’s.

Is it time that the so called “24 hr Media” should introspect on their ways of broadcasting news, and stop publicizing the terrorists (which is exactly what they want)?