I can’t think of a Title!!!

I’m Frustrated frustrated frustrated….. Why??????

Coz nothing, absolutely nothings seems to be going right at this point in time.

I tried like hell to get into a B-school, but didn’t work out. Its not like I wanted IIM A,B,C and d likes, just a normal, decent B-school, but nope, no luck there.

I absolutely, positively hate my job (Ok i know everybody does) and don’t even get me started on why I hate it. All you IT ppl will know what happens after almost two years of slogging and then being kicked right, left and centre like a football between projects, managers, and team mates, not to mention Locations.

My mind is so cluttered with negativity i feel like running away this instant without informing anyone and ya without my cell phone (Ah!! Pure bliss that would be). But no cant do that.

My leaves didn’t get approved for the month of June. I so badly wanted to go home. I haven’t been home after diwali ( Well actually i have for a weekend, but two days at home does not count) and I have accumulated more than 20 leaves, very miraculously i must say, and i just want to use half of them,…… but no cant do that too……. aaaargggghhhhhh….

My mom is vacationing with all her kitty party friends in Mahabaleshwar as i speak and i feel like getting up packing some clothes and get into the next bus to Mahabaleshwar……..

So right now my mind has just one process running…….. Should I? Shouldn’t I? Should I? Shouldn’t i????

So someone puh-lease help me take a decision…….

 

P.S: this is the first time i am writing so openly about my life and if some of you find it absolutely disgusting, then please please ignore it, but don’t stop visiting my blog……. this is just an outburst of emotions which required to come out somewhere……..

Confused!!!!!

For a long time i was under the impression that writing about your own life on your own blog was sad. I mean why would anybody else be interested in my life?

But today i have realized it’s not so much for others that people put up their personal things on a public domain but for their own selves. A lot of people like me are away from their loved ones, and when you come at a point in life when you so require a comforting hand on ur shoulder or just a hug, saying i’m there for you child, you become so helpless and restless, that this is the only medium available to let off d steam.

I have always felt that God puts me at such crossroads in life where taking a step towards any path or direction seems to be impossible. Well if not impossible, it does not seem to be in my control to say the least.

I am at such a crossroad in life ryte now, and although it may seem like a very trivial matter to be talking about to some, for me it falls into a life changing category.

What is it? Well, for starters, the client that i was working for in my company, does not require so many ppl in one project anymore pertaining to “the thing that must not be named” ( for all d tubelights out der…… recession… dumbo….. i’m so tired of that word, so ….. whatever, this bracket is getting way too long now  ). My manager has assured to get me another project maybe an onsite opportunity ( hush hush…… i’m not supposed to talk about it….. oops i already did lolz). And all this while i was thinking of resigning if i would get into a good (just “good” ok…. nope i’m not IIM material….. didn’t even take d big fat CAT he he). But now all of a sudden MBA seems to be “not so important”, and i dont wanna leave my job.

So it’s like i’m standing at this junction where i’m just waiting to be pushed into a particular direction, so that i don’t have to take d pains to take a decision on my own…. i just can’t you see……

Anyway, i think this is quite a lot for now. Let’s see when i can muster up the courage to write about me again.

In the meanwhile, just pray for me ppl (if der are any who read dis crap  )

Ok gotta go…… Thinking of spending the whole day playing Clickomania, so i can fill up d high score list with my name and make d imaginary Danny who is currently leading ( Who d hell is Danny???? Kya pata yaar….. Whatever)

Ciao…..