Confused!!!!!

For a long time i was under the impression that writing about your own life on your own blog was sad. I mean why would anybody else be interested in my life?

But today i have realized it’s not so much for others that people put up their personal things on a public domain but for their own selves. A lot of people like me are away from their loved ones, and when you come at a point in life when you so require a comforting hand on ur shoulder or just a hug, saying i’m there for you child, you become so helpless and restless, that this is the only medium available to let off d steam.

I have always felt that God puts me at such crossroads in life where taking a step towards any path or direction seems to be impossible. Well if not impossible, it does not seem to be in my control to say the least.

I am at such a crossroad in life ryte now, and although it may seem like a very trivial matter to be talking about to some, for me it falls into a life changing category.

What is it? Well, for starters, the client that i was working for in my company, does not require so many ppl in one project anymore pertaining to “the thing that must not be named” ( for all d tubelights out der…… recession… dumbo….. i’m so tired of that word, so ….. whatever, this bracket is getting way too long now  ). My manager has assured to get me another project maybe an onsite opportunity ( hush hush…… i’m not supposed to talk about it….. oops i already did lolz). And all this while i was thinking of resigning if i would get into a good (just “good” ok…. nope i’m not IIM material….. didn’t even take d big fat CAT he he). But now all of a sudden MBA seems to be “not so important”, and i dont wanna leave my job.

So it’s like i’m standing at this junction where i’m just waiting to be pushed into a particular direction, so that i don’t have to take d pains to take a decision on my own…. i just can’t you see……

Anyway, i think this is quite a lot for now. Let’s see when i can muster up the courage to write about me again.

In the meanwhile, just pray for me ppl (if der are any who read dis crap  )

Ok gotta go…… Thinking of spending the whole day playing Clickomania, so i can fill up d high score list with my name and make d imaginary Danny who is currently leading ( Who d hell is Danny???? Kya pata yaar….. Whatever)

Ciao…..

Hope

As she got off from the bus, a small flicker of hope, as if rising from her heart swept all over her.

 

Like always she looked around, her eyes scanning the area. Like everyday she wished, and wished hard.

 

She always looked for him every single day when she got off from the bus. It was as if she silently prayed that some sort of miracle would happen and he would appear right out of thin air. And she would go running to him no caring about anything around and he would sweep her in his strong arms and take her away with her.

 

But today was gong to be no different than every other day. He was not to be seen anywhere, and she reluctantly with a heavy heart crossed the all familiar gate and went inside the building.

 

This procedure was repeated every evening while going back in the same old boring bus that took her home. She looked around, and he was not there.

 

But it was this faint feeling of hope which arose in her heart everyday that carried her through the whole day and then through the whole night to the next day. As if the sole purpose of her existence was the hope to see him, the man she loved the most in her life.

 

“I know he’ll come tomorrow”, she tried to convince herself knowing all too well that the chances of her hope getting shattered were more than even the chances of the sun rising in the west.

 

But her mother had taught her, that it was only relying on hope that the whole world moved on, and that it was all she had, to keep her going.

 

She had sworn to herself to not let her mother down and went on working harder than ever, secretly wishing that God would be pleased with her perseverance and give her what she wanted. She also prayed that the war would end soon and she could see him again.

 

It was on a typical rainy day in July that her prayers were finally answered. She got off her bus and for the first time didn’t look around for him as the rain was increasing by the second. She trotted on the stone footpath cleverly avoiding the potholes full of dirty water, when her she cast a sideways glance at the road ahead.

 

At first she didn’t notice, but at a second glance she realized that it was actually him. She stood still for a moment for the sight to sink in and then she ran….. She ran as if all her life depended on it…….. And he swept her in his arms just like she had imagined, not caring about the curious onlookers, and whispered softly in his ears……

 

“Let’s go home daddy!!!!”